As I mentioned the days before my birthday are causing some serious reflection on the past many years of my life. Soon to be 28 years young, doesn't seem so young and at the same time makes me understand just how quickly time can fly.
This morning as I got up and began to get ready to attack the morning grind, called work, I began to wonder about if as a kid I imagined my adult life to be as such?!?! I mean, did I really have dreams of being an aspiring consultant at deloitte?!?! Was being a CA really what made me smile when I went to bed at night?!?!?! I highly doubt that....soo how do I ask, did I end up here?! And do we all have jobs we do, but dont love, and dont quite get how we ended up at?
As I began my dreadful morning commute out to the saug, I thought about what I thought I would be when I grew up. And here is what my aged memory could remember:
1. A doctor that delivers baby - Yes thats right, I love kids so much I always wanted to be a part of bringing such tiny miracles into the world - however I think watching the birth of a baby in Grade 12 parenting, my dreams came crashing down as I realized what I would have to see along with that baby :S
2. The next Barbara Walters - Why not?!?! You get to interrogate people and meet some of the most interesting people ever. I think I would still do this...however after realizing a camera adds 10 pounds regardless of how small you are, I feel like I would need to give up some major food groups to look just right on TV...annnnd quite frankly I LOVVVE red velvet cupcakes a bit tooo much...lol
3. A Back- Up Dancer - MHMMM hello, why not?!?!!? Only I think my token moves would only make me a solo act on stage as people try to get away from me...lol..
4. A singer - While I seem to think my voice resonates beauty I think the rest of the general public would beg to differ...lol - so yea I guess I wont be the next Canadian Idol anytime soon.
5. A writer - Welll I may not have any books published now, but after getting a hint of Carrie's column in sex and the city, this blog comes as close as its going to get for now, no?!?!?!?
Thats all i could manage to piece together and while I thought about how I used to talk to my parents and family about how I would be famous and on TV one day...I realized that none of what I wanted, depicted where I have ended up...and where I have ended up for NOW...isn't where I truely now want to end up.
Which is now VERY VERY VERY VERY Clear to me...its just a matter of getting there. I bet your all wondering where?? lol, or not I can imagine for most of the general population who wonder why I chose to ramble on this thing...BUTTTT just despite you haters, I will indulge in my aspirations which have become EXTREMELY clear as of late.
Prior to my african adventure my dreams were full of getting into B school and joining the elite group of powerful business women in the world. However after being surrounded by my grade 5's at St.Florence for many weeks, I realized that the rat race was not where I wanted to be and surely wasn't how I wanted to spend my life...
The truth is there is a legacy that my grandfather began long before I was born, that I have realized since starting at Deloitte is where I should and want to be headed. It involves education, teaching and building schools and further more it erases the dreams of B Schools and expensive tuition and never being around my family and allows me to be a mother, a successful entrepreneur, an inspiration, and the final part to a legacy that needs to be continued :)
Now the question is...how do I cut the current cord holding me back?!!??! This my friends is officiallllllly TBC (to be continued ....lol)
- Arti
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