The power of NOW...

As I sit here and still attempt to take in one of most amazing and inspiring weekends yet, I can't help but finally feel slightly at ease that life will work itself out...

I am lucky enough to be surrounded by some of the most amazing women in the world which of course include my girlies. No matter how different our backgrounds are we all manage to come together and continuously grow and inspire one another and this weekend proved nothing less then that.

As all of us (my girlies and I) are entering into similar stages in our lives where we are constantly being faced with the stresses and fears of past experiences that we want never to be repeated. It causes us all to live in fear and be somewhat unwilling to believe that life could change. And as we all are looking at futures that are filled with images of our own families its the how the hell will we ever get there questions that brought us all to our saturday night workshop.

As we all piled in the car to head over to this inspiring workshop we all had no idea what to expect. It was a meeting of 7 ladies who were ready to learn and ready to face things head on. We were taught to create lists of positive wants and needs and to focus on these things in both our everyday lives and relationships. Discussions surrounded things that were important to us, where we all came from and things holding us back and almost in some ways going through an intervention of sorts with the people that love you the most.

I needed this, more then anything and whille many events in the past few weeks have made me wonder if I was ever going to be capable of loving someone again whole heartedly or trusting anyone enough to let go of all my anxietys...Saturday night proved what I had slowly started to realize. ITS TIME TO FULLLY JUST LET GO..

I guess you can say that the basis behind the workshop we all attended was like most theorys we have heard about - the law of attraction. Putting things out into the universe in a positive manner that allow it to eventually come back to you. And i realized that as much as I have expectations of someone I will be with in the end, I can't expect certain things from them like trust until I know how to do the same. It has to be manifested as you put it out there and to put it out there means you have to be willing to reciprocate it. And by creating a list of things you are looking for, you are forcing yourself to believe you deserve it and thus will never settle for less.

There is definately question as to whether or not this stuff works or means anything but I do know that it makes soo much sence. Living in the NOW, versus living in your fears and anxietys of the past, only makes you that much more able to find what it is you want NOW and be willing to accept it with open arms. Which means embracing it, letting go and just enjoying the good stuff.

In every aspect in my life except relationships the past few years have been a process of clearing out the negative and bringing in all the positive and now with everything in tact there is only one area left to really work on......which is definately the hardest I must admit but definately worth a shot. I mean if I have seen the benefits of riding the negative energy in all other areas, doesn't it make sence to try?!?!?!

So as I begin to embrace the changes of a new job and the next step in my career. I have decided to take the ending of my PwC life as the end of the negativity chapter and my new career at Deloitte as the beginning of the rest of an amazingly positive life, I mean after all bad experiences just mean I deserve to get the goods now. SOOO world, I'm coming after you and so are the rest of these ladies who were with me this wkend, soo be ready becuase things wont ever be the same again :)

Heading out to take the rest of this wkend in, write soon but of course
- A