Halfway mark, and already feeling liberated :)

"The moment you truly forgive, you have reclaimed your power from the mind. Nonforgiveness is the very nature of the mind, just as the mind-made false self the ego, can not survive without strife and conflict. The mind can not forgive. Only YOU CAN...."

This is the last thing I read out of my book this weekend, and when I did, I had to take a moment to sit back and really just realize how true this statement really is. Its been a week since my last post and the truth is besides the fact that it has been a crazy week of settling into a new job, after doing what I promised in my last post which was to write letters to those people/events in my past that I needed to forgive, I needed sometime to recover from all the emotions entangled in doing such a task.

A very emotional sunday night, followed by work & life craziness left me in blankets between both the TV & this book all weekend. I needed sometime to recover and realize that I had and have forgiven and forgotten the past. Those moments that kept stopping me from moving forward are just events of the past that no longer effect my mind. I feel like in many ways a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and now I have one less issue to drag me down from enjoying the days I have been given.

After taking some time to reflect this wkend, I realized that I have actually begun to live in the now and while I have yet to rid the stresses that I anticipate during the day, I have learned to just see each day as it is, instead of just anticipating future days and events so that happiness can arrive. Its kind of a liberating experience and I am beginning to feel so focused and positive about the things I want that the worries of things that stopped me from being soo focused before have begun to dissipate.

Also I would love to report that while in week 2 of being liquer free, I have enjoyed a few nights out, a basketball game and random chilling with out drinking and have actually begun to enjoy the effects of the lack of liquer...you know the money you save, the lack of feeling crappy the next day, the ability to really enjoy your friends company instead of forgetting the moments and most importantly, I love that it just makes me feel that much more healthier and active about my life. So now I wonder if this is actually a lifetime commitment I may be able to make..mhmmm, to debate perhaps :)

Soo as I am half way through this journey and beginning to feel liberated in my ways, my next issue is this. How do you tell the universe or put out to the universe that you are focused, full of belief and positivity, but yet are still saddened by day to day events and moments that you need to endure?

Because that's my current struggle while a certain situation in my life isn't what i wish at this moment, i do believe, yet it doesn't really rid the day to day sadness of it all, so how I ask do I deal with that?!?!??! Any hints or tips? Because while I can remain happy and positive, I am only human and still hurt and get sad when things aren't what they really should be....

Hoping this book, or one of you has an answer

- A